sometimes when you look back, it's so easy to forget the bad. mostly because the bad sucks, and it's not fun to remember. i looked back recently, and completely forgot about some of the negative aspects of my relationship. i reached out to him, and he called me. we talked on the phone for three hours. i honestly thought we could get back together.
what a fool am i.
in one swift movement, all our problems came rushing back. i experienced the CONSUMING and awful feelings i used to experience and i remembered again why we had broken up. it's so difficult for me to let go of people, i get so emotionally attached. i know i'm not alone though. i'm dating someone new and i'm really hoping he turns out to be fantastic, and lives beyond my expectations... which are kinda low. i'm extremely guarded and have ten thousand walls up. i feel like this is a good thing. i've learned that if it's so difficult for me to let people go that have gotten into my heart, i've got to put up some sort of barrier to keep out the rotten eggs.
so that's my advice to you, readers (all twelve of you. i see you reading, i can see the stats.)
maybe it's not so bad to put up a wall, test out those suckers before you let them into your heart. but don't be impossible. we've got to let go sometimes! also, keep moving forward. you broke up for a reason.
it's called a break up because it's broken!
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